i think i am in major denial.

i have dreaded this for several years, in fact, and now that it's upon me, i really am ignoring it.

what was once a daily routine of checking muggle news and jkr's website has been blatantly set aside for months.

i just can't handle the truth.

my beloved harry potter is coming to an end.

you may think i am saying all of this tongue in cheek, or with a wee bit of wryness to it, but you couldn't be more wrong.

i'm dreading it. i almost don't even want to read it.

there will be no more speculation, no more juicy discussions of whether sirius is truly gone or not (yes, jeremy, he is!), no more events to coughdressupforcoughcough attend, no more examining cover illustrations prior to the release with the zoom feature, no more little plastic round glasses given out at barnes & noble....

no more anticipation.

as stephen king so aptly put it, " No ending can be right, because it shouldn't be over at all. The magic is not supposed to go away."

(for his parting eulogy for harry & company, go here)

so now, the true countdown begins.

wednesday night: the movie of the year for me.

and next week, the final chapter...