Friday, September 01, 2006
motherhood
Motherhood came as shock to me.

After trying unsuccessfully for a couple of years to conceive, I was elated when I found out I was pregnant with Em. When we discovered that we were having a little girl, my excitement- and number of daydreams- rose. I fantasized about pigtails and giggles and little pink clothes. We couldn't wait to meet this tiny little girl.
Then... Em arrived, in all her screaming wiggly glory. Quiet & sleep became a thing of the past. No more "moments to myself." Leaving the house became near impossible for a while.

I had loads of problems breastfeeding (something I had always been determined to do). Unbeknownst to me, Emerson had a painful case of acid reflux that made eating and laying down really uncomfortable for her, which equalled a screaming baby all the time. To top it all off, I ended up getting a severe infection. This left both Em and I in a soggy, crying mess most days.

My idealized fantasies of strolling around the mall as a cute new mom with her adorble pink, be-ribboned doll child went right out the window.

Things slowly got better over time. My infection healed, Em was prescribed medication for her acid reflux, and I began to get showers every day. (LOL)

Four months into being a mommy, I found out I was going to be one again.

I learned how to juggle morning sickness and early morning bottles; my naps and her naps; OB check-ups and play dates; a little one on my lap, sharing space with the new one in my ever-expanding tummy.

Atticus, you weren't "planned" by your daddy & I... but God knew we were ready for you. I was scared I wouldn't be able to give you and your sister the best mothering, but somehow we make it through every day with lots of hugs, kisses, and snuggles.

You nap easily, coo all the time, give huge "face-breaking" grins, and have no problems breastfeeding. You are generally one easy going little boy.

And one year after finding out I was pregnant with you, I couldn't imagine our home without you in it.
8 Comments:
Blogger Katie said...
How Sweet! You are a great Mommy! Emerson and Atticus are lucky to have you. : )

Anonymous Adrienne said...
Awww!!! How sweet! You are such a wonderful Mommy!

hey girl I know what you mean. my first two are only 12 months and 6 days apart. It has been tons of fun and I cannot imagine my life any different. They are going to be good friends! Yes life is crazy, but we are still young and can handle it...h

Blogger squeaky said...
my grandmother on my mother's side had 9 children in 11 years (7 girls and 2 boys). one of her pearls of wisdom she gave to me when i found out i was having kids 22 months apart was,"the sooner they come....the sooner they go." she says it with a grin and yet everyone knows she is the epitamy of a mother and grandmother.

Virginia--this was so sweet!! Happy Anniversary :)

Anonymous andrea said...
look at how cute and happy your kids are! great job Mom!

Anonymous Julie said...
It has to be hard juggling TWO little ones!! Sometimes it is hard enough for me with just the one, heehee. I am sure you are a wonderful mommy!! Emerson is such a sweetie!!

Blogger Sarah said...
once again killing me with the baby sweetness.

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