this weekend, i ended up pouring over several old journals of mine. i used to journal all the time, something i wished i did now, but never seem to "find the time" to do (note to self- find the time). anyways, it was a rather humbling experience. these journals spanned all the back to when i was 16... and man, my perspective was so limited. so focused on ME. so focused on which boy was "the one" that week. yeesh.but there was something else humbling, too. the earnestness, the naivete', the innocence before God. the reckless abandon at which i pursued Him. things that adulthood has stifled... things that i've unconsciously let go to seem more "mature". i am beginning to understand the truth behind "becoming like children before Him."anyways, i came across some lyrics to a song i had nearly forgotten about. it was my anthem when i was 17. just thought i'd share.(they are from a christian ska band called five iron frenzy.) Every New DayWhen I was young, the smallest trick of light,Could catch my eye,Then life was new and every new day,I thought that I could fly.I believed in what I hoped for,And I hoped for things unseen,I had wings and dreams could soar,I just don't feel like flying anymore.When the stars threw down their spears,Watered Heaven with their tears,Before words were spoken,Before eternity.Dear Father, I need you,Your strength my heart to mend.I want to fly higher,Every new day again.When I was small, the furthest I could reach,Was not so high,Then I thought the world was so much smaller,Feeling that I could fly.Through distant deeps and skies,Behind infinity,Below the face of Heaven,He stoops to create me.Dear Father, I need you,Your strength my heart to mend.I want to fly higher,Every new day again.Man versus himself.Man versus machine.Man versus the world.Mankind versus me.The struggles go on,The wisdom I lack,The burdens keep pillingUp on my back.So hard to breathe,To take the next step.The mountain is high,I wait in the depths.Yearning for grace,And hoping for peace.Dear God...Increase.Healing hands of God have mercy on our unclean souls once again.Jesus Christ, light of the world burning bright within our hearts forever.Freedom means love without condition,without a beginning or an end.Here's my heart, let it be forever Your's,Only You can make every new day seem so new.